Sorry.

This is a letter of apology.

This is for my parents.

I'm sorry. Really. I'm as heartbroken as you're probably going to be. Firstly, for being this way. Secondly, for lying. Thirdly, for not telling you sooner. This whole thing is just a whole massive backstab and I'm sorry.

I didn't mean it this way. It just happened. I realised I was this way when I was nine. That was a while ago, about eight years. Eight years hiding from the two people I loved most was a living Hell for me, I promise. I died a little every single day. All those cuts and bruises I told you were from falling off my bike, tripping on that last step, banging myself, they were all lies. Sorry about that. I know lying's bad, but I thought it would hurt you to know your little girl was hurting herself. But I know what I am isn't right. I can't help it. I've tried. Let me just say, you can't bleed your demons out.

Mom, Daddy, I don't expect you to be happy for me, or wish me luck, or tell me you don't mind, because I know. I know God made me to be with a man, and marry and have kids and teach them the Word of God. It might still happen.

I'm bisexual.

I'm so sorry.

The good news is, I might end up marrying a man. I probably will, because, I'm not gay. I don't like girls that much. The bad news is, I still sort of like them.

I'm staying over at Jessica's for the night. I'll be back tomorrow. Again, I'm sorry. For keeping it from you for so long. For disobeying you and the Lord. But it's not a choice, I've tried not to be this way. I've tried really hard. I'm sorry my attempts didn't work.

From your loving daughter,

Claire

May God bless the both of you x